Is It A Virtue?

Things are especially frustrating this year. I’ve personally experienced a lot of loss and death this year. As the holidays approach, the hopeless romantic comes out of me and it is something that I can’t help but to wrap around myself like a sweater.  Usually I can suppress my feelings about being single during the holiday season but this year is a whole different animal. I must say that I’ve been feeling a little like I want to be the protagonist in a Christmas movie on the HallMark channel. *le sigh* I'm sure that I am not the only one that has felt this way. I wanted to be transparent on my feelings during this time of year. I felt like all too often in Christendom we talk about the wait and how important it is. However I think that it is important to give ourselves the space to be human. To have feelings.To want to have someone. To cuddle on the couch and watch movies and drink hot chocolate. (sis we have to keep it at watching movies. Know your triggers) 

In 2020, we all have been through so much. We’ve seen, felt, and experienced so much. We’ve dealt with feelings of isolation. Feelings of fear. Feelings of uncertainty. I’m here to say that this is completely normal. It's normal to want to have someone close to help ease the anxiety. To go through these unprecedented times with. There have been some moments of sadness and some moments of happiness. 

It seems my life this year has been punctuated with funerals and sadness. It has been a trying time, and I’ve shed more tears than I can count. I’ve had a number of emotions but I try not wallow in. Give yourself space to be human. Space to feel and to work through your emotions. I’m here with you sis. We can get it through it together. 

Love, Life, and Jesus, 

Evelyn Denise